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Whatever happens... Believe in you, believe in life, believe in tomorrow, believe in everything you do, any time.

The Girlzx

She's a January Baby. Going through life the best she can. Little anecdotes of life as she takes another breath for another day.



Events
- AFA'14
- Christmas Cosfest' 14
- J-Obsession 2015
- Charaexpo 2015
- Cosfest 2015
- EOY 2015
- STGCC 2015
- Sports Fest 2015
- Gamestart 2015
- Anime Festival Asia 2015
- Christmas Cosfest 2015
- J-Obsession 2016
- Doujima 2016
- Charaexpo 2016
- Cosfest 2016
- STGCC 2016
- Sports Fest 2016
- GameStart 2016
- Costime! Aeon Mall, Johor
- Idolicious 2016
- Anime Festival Asia 2016
- EOY 2016
- Tampines Youth Fest 2016
- Comic Fiesta 2016
- Cosfest 2017
- Doujima 2017 - PowerUp 2017
- Yuri On Ice-only event 2017
- STGCC 2017
- Charaexpo 2017
- GameStart 2017
- Idolicious 2017
- AFA 2017

She Loves Her "ABoyFriends"!
~Inuyasha~
~Yugioh(cute Yugi & HanSome Yugi)~
~Yuu Kanda~D.Gray-Man
~Uchiha Itachi~Naruto
~Gaara of the sand~Naruto
~Neji~Naruto
~Tieria Erde~Gundam00
~Casshern~CasshernSINS
~Cloud~FinalFantasy7
~Noctis Lucis Calum~FinalFantasy15
~Lelouch~CodeGreass
~Shun~Bakugan
~Zuko~Avatar the last airbender
~Yzak Joule~GundamSeed
~Zeheart~Gundam AGE
~Levi Ackerman~Attack On Titan
~KagamiTaiga~Kuroko No Basuke
~Frau~07-Ghost
~HaradaSanosuke~Hakuoki
But to be honest I'd rather see my boys being together. :D


She Has Her BIASES
♥Tokio Hotel
Bill Kaulitz . Tom Kaulitz . Gustav Schafer . Georg Listing
♥The WANTED
Tom Parker . Max George . Siva Kaneswaran . Jay McGuiness . Nathan Sykes♥
♥ One Direction
Louis Tomlinson♥ . Zayn Malik . Liam Payne . Niall Horan . Harry Styles
♥District 3
Dan Ferrari-Lane . Michael Parsons♥ . Greg West
♥Palaye Royale
Sebestian♥ . Remington . Emerson
♥JEdward
♥Ed Sheeran
♥SHINee
Lee JinKi . Kim JongHyun♥ . Choi MinHo . Kim KiBum . Lee TaeMin
♥B.A.P.
Bang YongGuk . Kim HimChan♥ . Jung DaeHyun . Yoo YoungJae . Moon JongUp♥ . Choi JunHong ZELO
♥NU'EST
Aron Kwak . Kim JongHyun JR . Kang DongHo BaekHo♥ . Hwang MinHyun . Choi MinKi Ren
♥B1A4
Jung Jinyoung . Shin Dongwoo CNU . Lee Junghwan Sandeul . Cha Sunwoo Baro . Gong ChanSik ♥
♥SEVENTEEN
Choi SeungCheol . Jang DoYoon . Yoon Junghan . Hong Jisoo . Wen JunHui . Kwon SoonYoung . Jeon WonWoo . Lee JiHoon . Yao MingMing . Lee SeokMin . Kim MinGyu . Boo SeungKwan . Chwe Hansol . Lee Chan . Shin DongJin . Samuel .
♥5SecondsOfSummer
Ashton Irwin . Michael Clifford . Calum Hood . Luke Hemmings
♥TheVamps
♥Boyce Avenue
♥The Script
weeee
Monday, November 13, 2017
にほんご １ は おわりました！

やった~!
今日は、日本語試験終わりました。大変ですが、楽しです。よく習いました。伊藤先生は優しの先生です。友達も優しです。明後日はレクチュアは最後のレクチュアです。そして、最後のクラスです。先生は松岡先生です。友達と先生と離れて寂しくなります。

わたしの試験でうまくいったことを願っています。
まだおわりの試験はよくがんばります。

 - ハシマ

Monday, October 30, 2017
Liberation from 'volunteering'

30 October 2017

I am so glad I am (sort of) out of the main planning and management team of TCCCYEC. Although I am still struggling with balancing work and work and play (sort of play but more leisure in my sense haha), I feel a bit more liberated. Whatever I am doing now is at my own pace along a certain condition I do not mind following (or more like obliged to haha) rather than a group of racist, egoistic and prideful bunch of overly ambitious hooligans at the expense of my time and effort for not much gains but stress and undervaluing myself.
Although I am grateful for the opportunity of allowing me to invite/meet my stars and carry out something I never thought I could, I guess for now I would like to be relieved of the additional stress and baggage, and focus more on myself and my future.

Hash xx

Wednesday, March 08, 2017

Idk, I’ve come to this point that I desire someone to take me away from this life, this society that I am living in right now. This bureaucracy, this meritocracy, these expectations, and responsibilities that I am carrying, are they all worth it? Why do I trouble myself so much? Why do I do these things? Why do I keep on holding to hope though as much as I put my faith onto it, can’t help but see the falseness that my aspirations can be??
I don’t know, maybe that’s why I desire to be with him, so that he can take me away from here. The 4 days we spent together were challenging given the timeline I was at, and yet every moment with him, just with him, the small moments that it was just me and him, was something I had never experienced before. I don’t know if it is just me playing an illusion to fulfil my desires, my imagination, my wants, but I’ll still admit, as little hope I hold that it was real as it may not be, I enjoyed it, and I miss it. I want to experience it again. I don’t know if I can experience it with anyone else but him though… I don’t know.

I really want to spend time with him again, though I am honestly scared. So scared.
So scared if it is just me playing my own fantasies.
That he doesn't spare any thought about me.
That he doesn't feel the same way.

If what I am afraid of is true then... I guess it's okay. It's gona be hard to be together anyways...

:'<

Thursday, October 20, 2016
Governmentality................

Just some thoughts running through my head as I complete this essay on Singapore as a developmental state...

Governmentality is like the way in which the state governs its population through certan values and motivations that are so ingrained into their mindsets that it seems natural to do so in which it obeys the ideologies and policies of the state.
The Singapore State was geared to industralization and development right after the independence from the British Colonials and separation from Malaysia in 1964. Since then, Singapore had taken somewhat a corporative-state model, like while it develops the different firms to drive its economy (SOEs), it also develops its people to be progressive and constantly seek development.

Like a successful parent (holding on to a high position in a corporation) bringing up their child to be like them...

Which is quite sad ah...
While it does bring good progress to Singaporeans as a nation -- getting world recognitions and what not -- but at the same time its population got pulled along the current. They HAVE to progress, and HAVE to achieve success or they will be left behind, struggling until they seek help.

What if Singapore didn't kick off its years seeking industrialisation like crazy? Maybe we will be more chill and not be a successful but not happy state..

But I think it is quite content to say that ah, because being like that while the rest of the world is achieving higher economic progress and success will only pressurize us as a nation for not starting industrialization earlier when we had the chance, seeing how Singapore is already lagging behind historically from the colonial masters.

Monday, October 10, 2016

I am so angry with myself
omg
how much does it take for me to learn to be selfish for once
I know my priorities
And I should fight for it
Fight against the Satan that surrounds me and those that dwell within me
Please
PLEASE
Realise this already 
You are so SO much better than this. Really.

Friday, August 19, 2016
160819




Wednesday, May 11, 2016
Photo credits: Photographer or Cosplayer?

11 May 2016

I've been looking at the recent mini photoshoot I had and the praises that the impressively edited photo received. I was really impressed and had no idea how to react to such an incredibly dramatic photo, except thankful and... impressed.. hahaha. However, I had a sort of different reaction when judging the reception, though. Looking through the comments, a thought came to my mind. The thought may have come from my low self-esteem or just my pure stupidity or maybe because this is the first time any of my photos EVER received so much reception. Nonetheless, I wondered. In the production of a cosplay photo (or any modelling photo for that matter), who should receive what amount of praise and credit for it? The cosplayer (who made the costume and posed and actually appears in the pictures) or the photographer (who skillfully took the photo and edited it to add the dramatic flare)? 

To be honest, I probably already know the answer to my own question; the production of the photo is a teamwork of both the cosplayer and the photographer as well as anyone who spent time and effort to make it. 

Yes, 

However, the response and reception of the photos released were just so one sided, I could not let the matter get out of my head.
On one side, the cosplayer. 
They make the costumes. They make the props. They spend time refining the costume, over and over again. They do up their makeup. They buy all sorts of things to perfect their costumes and portrayal of the characters. On another layer, they will have to do research and practice to embody the character as accurately as possible and come up with poses and expressions to match the character to really bring out the feelings of the actual character. They try to fit as exact as possible to the character they are cosplaying because when the costume or makeup is inaccurate, they are the ones who will get flamed or heavily criticized.

Following that, the photographer.
They take the photos: angles, lighting, composition, positioning, tilt, where to focus, etc etc. It takes quite a lot of practice and skill; for someone who had been with a camera almost all her life, can say that. After that, they will (well, most photographers) will pick out the best photos and edit them to their hearts' content, with or without the cosplayer's inputs. 

Then, the photo gets published.

Where is the limit though, how much of the picture is the photographer's work?

It's pretty obvious for a 'famous' cosplayer that the cosplayer will get most of the credits, especially when they make the costumes themselves, but at the same time, other cosplayers will try to find out who their photographer is and ask them for shoots so that they can look 'as good as the famous cosplayers or even better'. It's the same trend you see. Even with the photo that brought this issue on hand. The audience didn't exactly praise the cosplayer, they are, directly or indirectly, praising and acknowledging the photographer's works. The photographer!
"<3 ____="" div="" i="" shoot="" too="" want="">
"Forever nice photos"
"Pro!"
"WAHH, look damn striking!"
"SUGOI"
.. and the comments went on and on.

I was gonna say 'oh yes the photo was posted on the photog's page', but I shared the post too. The difference was that there were no comments at all and there were barely any likes. 

!?!?!?!??!?!?!?!

This thought would probably haunt me but as a takeaway, I'm gonna acknowledge both the cosplayers and the photographer when I look at photos. From here on out. Yes. 




ok back to watching my Iron Blooded Orphans marathon hahahah ^~^

((anws have a jisoo >~<))

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gdi

Supposed to be doing my essay right now but i cannot think for shit omg hahaha

1) Remind me to print out lecture notes and then write notes on the lecture notes ESPECIALLY when they are open book exams. Readings can be read from the laptop, that's fine.
2) Revision is an ongoing thing, you cannot expect to revise 14 week worth of content within a week.
3) Keep the revision week for refreshing your mind about the concepts and content of the module and then DOING exercises and pre-empting questions that may come out, so that you can practice applying what you have learnt through the semester.
4) This is something I didn't know at first but, for assignments, you can go to the tutor to seek help and assistance. Being shy will make you loose out. So don't. Be bold and ASK.

GDI it's already the second semester gurl you better buck up. FAST.