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30 December 2013?!

30 December 2013

Whoa only 1 more day left of 2013?! I am already done with Year 1 of JC?! That's fast! It seemed as if only yesterday I had first stepped into MJC and started 2013 and now it's another year to come? O.o That's really fast...

Anyway, 2013. Hmmm.. What can I say about this year... The start of yet another new section in my life as I step into Junior College as a freshman. Challenging, I must say. New environment, new people, new faces... and yet the past sometimes haunts me, and sometimes pushes me forward. So little time yet so much had to be done.
This year, I think, the main word that is applicable to my 2013 would be "dedication". Dedication not only in studies but in my interests as well. How much I dedicate myself to my subjects and studies at the same time dedicate myself to B.A.P, NU'EST, SHINee, Seventeen and more... I can't exactly dedicate myself to all so this year my dedication varies around those mentioned and more.. some, I had to reduce the dedication I put in as at that point of time, something else had to be placed as a higher priority. Though I feel unmotivated to come to this new school of mine, I had to be dedicated to my studies. I had a chance, I must do it, I was given an opportunity, I should take it and prove that I am worthy of the opportunity.
A bulk of my 2013 is.... Seventeen. Pledis Seventeen. I admit I knew them when Pledis first mentioned them in late 2012, but it was only early 2013 that I actually went to see them. They are really something. Trainees of Pledis and potential group members, they worked hard and persevered well to improve themselves and to prove to their CEO and their company that they were worth being put into their new group, that they deserved the spot in the company. No matter how young they are, no matter how much they missed their families, their friends and their hometown. They had to work hard, they had to push forward, they had to continuously improve themselves so that their future would be certain and the way they had wanted it.
They were quite similar to me to some extent. I remember being offered to go to SOTA when I was 12. I was tempted to go. Yes, I actually wanted to go. However, the fees worry me a lot. Hence, I had to give up that offer and pursue the academic pathway, and still go for Dance CCA throughout my schooling years. Had I taken that offer, would I be like those Seventeen members? This was where Seventeen became my motivation. Similar to my age, they are like people I would be had I taken that Performing Arts route. Seeing them work hard, it gave me the visual motivation I needed to study harder, so to show that while they are good at performing arts, I am good at my academics because i am sure they do have to take exams in their schools besides being in the company. Seventeen, I thank you. Although you might not know me, just know that you are of value, every one of you. Let's work together to reach our dreams. :)
As mentioned, I was quite unmotivated in this new school of mine. The people generally don't bother me almost at all, almost as if I don't exist in there although some people in there were friends of mine in the past. They didn't bother me and it bothers me, as ironic as it sounded, although to be honest I didn't want to be bothered. It somehow affected my studies and I realised how bad it was soon enough. That's when I snapped. Why was I bothered by these people anyway? Some of them may affect my future but most of them won't. So why bother to be bothered? It was my studies I have to be bothered about so there. STUDY. Study and study I did. I was given the chance of being in a JC where some people didn't get to be here. So utilise it. Take it and use it for all it is worth. This is my life. This should be my way to live it. Fortunately, as worried as I was during final year exams, I got promoted to JC2. I was elated. I was thankful, I was given another chance where many had to retain, not given the chance to move on, yet. I promise to work hard. I WILL work hard. I know and I am sure that there will be times where I stumble and fall, but fall I may and rise up I will. Rise Up and attack the day with enthusiasm and move on. Keep on going, keep on persevering. Keep living on.