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Whatever happens... Believe in you, believe in life, believe in tomorrow, believe in everything you do, any time.

The Girlzx

She's a January Baby. Going through life the best she can. Little anecdotes of life as she takes another breath for another day.



Events
- AFA'14
- Christmas Cosfest' 14
- J-Obsession 2015
- Charaexpo 2015
- Cosfest 2015
- EOY 2015
- STGCC 2015
- Sports Fest 2015
- Gamestart 2015
- Anime Festival Asia 2015
- Christmas Cosfest 2015
- J-Obsession 2016
- Doujima 2016
- Charaexpo 2016
- Cosfest 2016
- STGCC 2016
- Sports Fest 2016
- GameStart 2016
- Costime! Aeon Mall, Johor
- Idolicious 2016
- Anime Festival Asia 2016
- EOY 2016
- Tampines Youth Fest 2016
- Comic Fiesta 2016
- Cosfest 2017
- Doujima 2017 - PowerUp 2017
- Yuri On Ice-only event 2017
- STGCC 2017
- Charaexpo 2017
- GameStart 2017
- Idolicious 2017
- AFA 2017

She Loves Her "ABoyFriends"!
~Inuyasha~
~Yugioh(cute Yugi & HanSome Yugi)~
~Yuu Kanda~D.Gray-Man
~Uchiha Itachi~Naruto
~Gaara of the sand~Naruto
~Neji~Naruto
~Tieria Erde~Gundam00
~Casshern~CasshernSINS
~Cloud~FinalFantasy7
~Noctis Lucis Calum~FinalFantasy15
~Lelouch~CodeGreass
~Shun~Bakugan
~Zuko~Avatar the last airbender
~Yzak Joule~GundamSeed
~Zeheart~Gundam AGE
~Levi Ackerman~Attack On Titan
~KagamiTaiga~Kuroko No Basuke
~Frau~07-Ghost
~HaradaSanosuke~Hakuoki
But to be honest I'd rather see my boys being together. :D


She Has Her BIASES
♥Tokio Hotel
Bill Kaulitz . Tom Kaulitz . Gustav Schafer . Georg Listing
♥The WANTED
Tom Parker . Max George . Siva Kaneswaran . Jay McGuiness . Nathan Sykes♥
♥ One Direction
Louis Tomlinson♥ . Zayn Malik . Liam Payne . Niall Horan . Harry Styles
♥District 3
Dan Ferrari-Lane . Michael Parsons♥ . Greg West
♥Palaye Royale
Sebestian♥ . Remington . Emerson
♥JEdward
♥Ed Sheeran
♥SHINee
Lee JinKi . Kim JongHyun♥ . Choi MinHo . Kim KiBum . Lee TaeMin
♥B.A.P.
Bang YongGuk . Kim HimChan♥ . Jung DaeHyun . Yoo YoungJae . Moon JongUp♥ . Choi JunHong ZELO
♥NU'EST
Aron Kwak . Kim JongHyun JR . Kang DongHo BaekHo♥ . Hwang MinHyun . Choi MinKi Ren
♥B1A4
Jung Jinyoung . Shin Dongwoo CNU . Lee Junghwan Sandeul . Cha Sunwoo Baro . Gong ChanSik ♥
♥SEVENTEEN
Choi SeungCheol . Jang DoYoon . Yoon Junghan . Hong Jisoo . Wen JunHui . Kwon SoonYoung . Jeon WonWoo . Lee JiHoon . Yao MingMing . Lee SeokMin . Kim MinGyu . Boo SeungKwan . Chwe Hansol . Lee Chan . Shin DongJin . Samuel .
♥5SecondsOfSummer
Ashton Irwin . Michael Clifford . Calum Hood . Luke Hemmings
♥TheVamps
♥Boyce Avenue
♥The Script
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Friday, May 01, 2015
Struggles

During A's last year as i struggled to do my revisions, there were of course times when I just want to give up. Heck, I was a  walking failure in the 2 years I was in JC. I failed almost every subject throughout my 2 years. I really wanted to stash every of my tests and exam papers away from my sight every time i got them back because everytime I think I did better, i didnt. I distanced myself from once friends and kept myself busy all the time, with work or just alone.
However, I kept on saying to myself: it's only 2 years. Just work as hard as I can, face all my failures and keep on improving myself. So I set goals to look forward to after A's. One of them included traveling.

I wanted to go Korea in March. I wanted to go Japan in April. London, maybe. Australia too. If not, Bangkok sounds good. Batam too. Those were my motivations to get through shitty JC life and plans after A's. I wanted to TRAVEL. I wanted ADVENTURE. I just wanted to GO SOMEWHERE. AWAY. Isn't that what most teenagers my age want? However, the difference between me and them who update their photos and whereabouts is that they ACTUALLY get there, I can only plan... for my dreams to take me.
I voiced a bit to my parents saying I wanted to go. I had alr told my plans to go Japan in April this year AND IT IS ALREADY MAY. When else but now? When school starts, who knows how busy I'll be? What's more, my mentor is currently in Japan. My friend who didnt had any interest to go, ended up buying impromtu tickets to Korea next week because their group of friends are going tgt. My parents reminded me of the money I owe my sister and awkwardly excused themselves.

How frustrating can that be.

Then i heard my father is taking up part-time job again on top of his current work to pay for my upcoming uni fees.
And it is not that I don't enjoy my internship - i do. I get to meet and network with so many important people of statuses. Just that the pay is so minimum i can barely save 6% of my potential uni fees - that is if i don't use transport and eat. So what more about enjoyment and leisure? About travelling?
I can barely pay my sister for the money i owe. And yeah, keep reminding me of the trip and the money i owe. Even if it makes me feel excited, i feel uninvited.
All I can put the blame to is me of course. For always putting too high a personal expectation and ending up disappointing myself even if it is a great achievement to others.

Just like my results.


So what now, i have been holding on to false hope? Is it wrong to hope? You just had to, right? You just had to crush the hope i held on to for so long. You really had to.
Well, i'm sorry. I am sorry for being young. I am sorry for being stupid. I am sorry, I shouldnt exist right?

You said i need to change. Then fine then. I'll jolly fucking well change.

I'm sorry, I am very sorry to my younger self. I'm really sorry for making you hold on to false hope to make sure i exist to where i am today. I am very sorry for making you abid the selfish desires of me wanting to conform to society. To be accepted. I am sorry you had to hold on to such false hope. You know, i had to. If i hadnt had to do so, you would have long dropped out at Primary 4. I'm sorry. I am really sorry.
But i need you to hold on. Just a little more. You are so So SO very close to the endless finishing line. You know you can do so much better, but for now, this is what you can do. What You are capable of right now. So just hold on. Please, just hold on. You will get there, ok?