Time

Hello~

It has been a while......
And yes I realised I missed out the whole of 2014.
Because it was a VERY stressful and trying year for me as it was for most JC2 students.
Basically, A-levels,
and many other misfortunes that had befallen on me.

Before I start, please pardon my English because... well you see, after putting in so much for my exams, after A-levels, my english just...... died. >.<"

A lot of things happened, both pleasant and not, but all in all these experiences are what that shaped my 2014. I choose to view them as worthwhile experiences, let them pass, and move on. If I were to give my 2014 a theme, I would have given it a title of "Time".

Time draws to a close

Probably the most impactful thing that occurred this year was the passing of my paternal grandfather, a significant figure in my extended family. He was a very old man, about 90, but he was such a strong man with such a pleasant demeanor that we often forget that his time in this world had been long and tiring. He was rarely sick, perhaps he was never sick - as far as I could remember. But time stirs on and soon old age caught up to him, pulling him away from us. He suffered from lung infection with a deadly super virus that was not receptive to the antibiotics given to him. There was so little time left for him, we made our way to visit him at the ICU where we can. At that point of time it was during my Prelims. After the paper, I met with my parents and nephew to go to TTS hospital to visit him in my uniform. Seeing his once strong and frail figure lying limply on the bed with breathing assistance and tubes poked in various parts of his body, it breaks my heart to many millions tiny sharp pieces piercing through my ultimate being. It was hard, afterall, he is my only paternal grandfather, but I'm sure he is at a better place now. :)

Time to start a new life

My elder brother married! Second family member of mine to wed after my eldest sister~ He wed a few weeks before A's. It was a nuisance because i could not study... but i had fun while it lasted. It was a great time nonetheless, I am happy for my brother. And I really love the times when my family would gather with my extended family for something so special - it is not all the time that these events occur. So, while it was at a bad timing, I still enjoyed the event. :)

Time has it's own pace; it constantly moves and halts for no one

So, I sat in the MRT with my Chemistry notes clutched withing my trembling fingers. As my mind was bloatedly full with Organic Chemistry reactions, my heart wondered far, feeling light. It was the last few papers. Just about a week ago I was panicking my pants off because A-level was so close, I could taste it. Now, I'm just operating according to the schedule, savouring its flavour. I could not help but let a chuckle escape my lips. Time really has its own sense of living and dragging others along with its pace - whether we want to or not.

It takes time, but it is worthwhile to have patience

I remembered when I was in Secondary 2, one of my clique members was suddenly interested in Cosplay. We were all into Anime and Manga and basically the Japanese Culture, but she was the most interested one among the 4 of us. She got her mother's permission- and encouragement - and asked me along. Unfortunately, in sight of my exam results and school involvement, my mother didn't give me her permission. I was not angry at all. I understand the reason why even without my mother's nagging. I need to set my priorities right and work to do my best. Rewards can come in later, when I am more deserving. In addition, even an outsider can tell that Cosplay is costly and comes with a lot of risks and what not. For a mere student, it is quite unwise if I want to succeed in life. So, I had to turn down the offer, even when my friend's mother offered to pay for my costumes.
Now, when ALL of my major exams are over - PSLE, O-Levels & just: A-levels - it is about time. There is nothing stopping me now. Therefore, here I am! I have started cosplaying, 5 years after my first interest. Right after A-levels, I made my own costumes - Yes, I got my mother to teach me to sew and we did my costumes by hand - and dressed up for Anime Festival Asia 2014! How nice of the management to shift that year's AFA to December(usually, AFA is held mid-November), where all the exams are over. I am definitely not great - there is always a first - and I will improve as I go on. For how long, I am not sure, but I will constantly improve. I'll do my best to bring life to the characters I admire. :)
Look forward to my future posts! I'll probably put up here some interesting things about cosplay and stuff if I feel like it hahaha :D

And so, time constantly moves. It cares not for the rest of the world but yet the world is a slave to its callous motion. Growing, decomposing fulfilling, missing... as the living and the dead transforms, time still moves on. and on. and on. and on.

Till next time!

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